Well I guess it is only fair that if I read the blogs of fellow IF bloggers that I should begin my own blog. So here it goes! My hope that is by starting this blog I will be able to connect with others who are feeling the same struggles that "Fred" (that is how I will refer to DH) and I have indurred over the past 64 months of our marriage.
Infertility SUCKS and there is no better way to put it. I have always had a fear that I would have trouble having children, but I certainly never dreamed that it would be this big of a struggle. We have gone through every test in the book, each of us has had a surgery or two. Everything pretty much comes back normal but yet I am still the ONLY one in my group of friends who is either does not have a child, is not pregnant, or has NEVER been pregnant. I guess today is a tough day also because I just received word that a very close friend of mine who has been dealing with infertility for the past two years just found out that she is pregnant. While I am extremely happy for her I am SO JEALOUS! She was my buddy in the infertility struggle. She could understand what we are going through, but now her wish of becoming pregnant has come true and mine still hasn't! How is a person supposed to get over the hurt that they feel everytime they receive that dreaded phone call or email. I know that all of my friends feel like they have to walk on eggshells in order to spare my feelings, I don't want it to be that way but what am I to do? I just pray daily that God gives me peace and patience and that my time to become a loving parent will come soon! I can't wait for the chance to tell my husband that he is going to be a daddy, I can't wait to announce to the grandparents that they are going to have another grandchild, and I can't wait to have a child to share my love with! My time will come and I know that.
We will be beginning our IVF treatment cycles in May so I hope that through this blog I will be able to help educate others on the process as well as make new friends who have been in the same boat as I, but have through the grace of God have made it out of the infertility boat and into the happy land of parenting! I pray that in June I will have excellent news to share with the world!